6 01 2009

They say love comes at the right time.,. But when do we say that it’s the right time? How do we know if he’s the right person to love and to be with for the rest of your life?

When I was in my adolescent stage, I seldom think about love or even liking someone. I don’t even had a crush on anyone in school but like other girls, I fantasize my idols in my favorite boybands. Typical doing of a 12-year-old girl, right? But there’s this time that when I was in grade three, Icho, one of my male classmates courted me. I was feeling aloof from boys in that age of mine so I just ignored him even though I really see his efforts I mean his friends’ efforts, is that right? To be honest, that situation took a long time before he gave up. Haha, no hope. Oh no, it’s not because I don’ like him, <well, I don’t wanna lie but I really don’t like him… ^_^). It’s because I’m so serious into my studies that I barely appreciate those kinds of things. After that time, I was never courted again by a guy until I reached my fourth year, <well, I don’t think I’m ugly, haha!!).

Then this next guy I think is the most polite respectful of all guys that came into my life until now <not to mention the richest… =p). Edward is so gentle and I like his attitudes, well, almost. He used to give me many surprises which I think he knows I love surprises. For instance, he was unable to attend my 16th bday celebration because his classes were continuous until night. But he came to our house the day after with lots of food like it’s another party for my bday. Also, he made sure I enjoyed our first date. We watch movie at the cinema, played in the arcade, ate a lot, he was the one who taught me how to play billiards as well, and even bought me gift before we go home. Perfect, right? At Valentine’s Day, he gave me a big stuffed toy and invited me to watch a romantic movie that time. In Christmas, he wanted to surprised me when he went to our house, sadly I was out with my sisters and only mom was home. I came home but he wasn’t there already but what was the surprised? He left me a huge teddy bear which is about half my size that made it so cuddly. And there’s also this day that he asked me out to eat. I was wondering when he gave me a small cheese muffin and he’s so insistent for me to eat it. I told him I’m still full and asked him to eat it instead. But he’s kind of trying it hard for me and begging me to even just give it one bite. I’m so shy that I didn’t agree. So, he gave it a bite up to the middle of the bread to my astonishment that there was a silver ring inside it. Just then I realized the idea. So sweet of him, right? Sadly, I lost it when we were once at a mall not sure where I had left it, <actually, the ring did not any of my fingers). But right before we graduated in high school, he again gave me another ring, he said it was a replacement for the one I had lost, <sorry… =’c). So, with a guy like that, wouldn’t you feel his true feelings for you? He respects you for who you are and attentively listens to you everytime you talk. I almost fall in love with him within more than a year that he’s courting me. Yes, almost…

Why? This was what had happened… We enrolled in college in diferent schools. Nope, it’s not the distance that matter for he still faithfully courted me. The thing is that he started acting like he owns me. I became annoyed of his attitude. I’m not sure f it sort of being overprotective but I think it’s not. He wanted me to tell him every detail that’s happening to me. I mean, hello? I think I deserve my privacy. I don’t feel being respected anymore. And because of that, my feelings for him started to fade away. Until the day I confessed to him about what I think what we have that time and find for words to tell him to stop his feeling grow more for me without him being hurt. Right. Of course, nobody’s not gonna feel hurt for that. I know he felt the pain but me as well. And I think that would be fair if I let him go and not keep him hoping that we’ll end up together. I know it’s not right but I pity him that time I saw his face and telling me to give him another chance and he’ll wait for me no matter how long it takes for me to make a decision. At first, I thought what I did was a mistake. Later then I realized I’ve made the right decision. For him to feel free and unobliged of taking care of me. But no worries, we remained friends….




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