new start. . .

13 01 2009

I decided to finally move on from the pain that I’m feeling again. I now spent a lot of time with my friends and usually ignore suitors. Of course, I don’t want to feel the same bad feeling over and over again. Be hurt? Awww, never again. But I know for a fact that a relationship never lasts without pain and sacrifices. Alright, enough of that. So my story continues with spending a lot of bonding time with lots of friends. After all, true friends are always there for you but lovers are not. Haha!!! I really have lots of friends on the MarE Dept. Almost all of them I know. Bert and I met each other in one of the parties I’ve attended with friends. Well, he’s also my schoolmate and we became good friends. One afternoon in school, Maics ask me to accompany her to the library to get something. She told me we go to the library which is usually used by engineering students especially marines. There I spotted Bert  with his pals on one table. I decided to approach them so I told Maics that I’ll wait for her there. And so when I went to them, Bert introduced me to his friends: Ashley <he’s a guy huh!), Echo, and Mhyco. I’ve later known that they are the hottest group of marines in school. Why? All of them are good in dancing, Ashley is one of the students on the higher rank, Echo is an officer of the Marine Corps Commanders and Mhyco is famous for being the best dancer in their Department. So, do you agree with me? Bert asked for my number and I gave it to him. We became very, very good friends. We hang out almost everyday. They made me realize that I don’t need a boyfriend to be happy as always which is an idea that I almost forget about. Did I mention that I’m more comfortable with my guy friends than gals? That’s true! My girl friends even feel jealous because of them. Well, what can I do? Girls usually talk either how sweet guys are or how rude they treat them. While guys talk about ‘real’ things. Real.. I mean, life… What we do everyday, assignments, experiences, problems and funny things that happened to us. Everything that we can share to others. I so enjoyed those times.

On the other hand, one of their classmates was seriously courting me. Jobel is nice, a co-officer of Echo, a gentleman and he’s kinda cute, really, but we seldom talk when where together which made me think that if we’ll be a pair, it’s not gonna work out. The thing is, as time passes, I became closer to Mhyco. He’s cute of course. And one of the things that I like about him is that he acts natural around everybody. He’s fun to be with and I don’t feel shy when I’m with him. I feel very comfortable. One night, after classes, Joamy and I headed to the final auditions for the most prestige dance group in our school. Luckily, we passed so we’re very overwhelmed and went to our friends who are drinking that time in one of our favorite hang-out. Of course our friends were so proud of us and for celebration, they ordered more drinks and shared it with us. I am so tired that day so just a few shots and I already felt dizzy. Mhyco offered a seat beside him so when I think I have to take a little rest, I have no choice but to lean on him. Even though I know that Jobel is there, I think he’s still don’t have the guts to be always around me to take care. All of us knew that he’s so jealous when he saw us. I don’t know what’s gotten into me actually. To make a long story short, I still have a boyfriend that time but thought that we’re already off since he’s not communicating with me anymore. The issue of Jobel courting me is like a showbiz much-awaited report for the MarE Dept. Mhyco also has a girlfriend that time and I really don’t have an idea of what kind of relationship they have.

The question was, why do we feel the same way for each other? I know it’s wrong but I felt like I can tell him what I feel inside me. Going back to the drinking session, I decided to go outside for a while to take a breathe of fresh air. The group followed me. In a court near by, I called Mhyco and chat with him for a while. I told him what I really feel about what’s happening that time and he asked me why I was telling him all of those but I just answered him I feel that I can trust him. The next day on my way to school, I received a message from an anonymous texter. I asked who he was and he introduced himself right away. I learned that it was Mhyco and he was asking how do I do after that night. I told him what happened when Echo and I went home together. Echo was drunk and he vomitted inside the jeepney exactly when I was about to alight so I have no choice but to asked him to come with me. He continuously throw out and when I think he’s already feeling better, I let him go home. I then wondered how he got my number and asked him. He confessed that when Bert asked for my number at the library, it was their idea and said they’d used his phone. He asked me if it’s fine. Well, I had no choice and I think that will be just fine. We became textmates as well ’cause of that. But at the peak of our closeness, many rumors spreaded. Some said that it’s not good that I’m closer to him knowing that Jobel is courting me and that Mhyco has a girlfriend. I pondered on my options that week. I know that I feel for Mhyco but I don’t want to hurt Jobel. I had different decisions everyday. Sometimes I decided to just answer Jobel even if I know I can only offer him friendship. Then I also thought of continuing my growing feelings for Mhyco since I know for fact that he also likes me. But finally before a new school week begins, I’ve made up my mind that I’m just gonna distance myself from the two of them so that I’ll be avoiding any improvement in our feelings and I’ll not destroy their friendship. But still, the opposite of that happened. I don’t want to boast but I just wanna tell you what happened next. It’s like their competing for my attention. They are waiting for me every other day to fetch me home. I’m so flattered, haha! That situation continued for quite some time until the day we’ve been waiting for finally took place…

My One and Only…

12 01 2009

Happy One Year and Five Months to Mahal Coh!!! I Love You So Much and I Miss You!!! I’m Just Here Always Waiting For Your Return!!! Take Care Always and God Bless!!! Hugs and Kisses!!!